Johnny Bitlan - Down Lyrics

Why, I wanted my name I wanted my life
Why, I wanted to make it out just to be here alive
I, don't understand why I'm feeling down
Why, all my feelings going to die

I don't wanna be surrounded with fear
I wanna be me, but I disappeared
I wanna be happy but I'm feeling down
I keep being strong but I'm not really proud

I'm not really proud of myself
I'm not really proud of my life
I'm dreaming a lot and I know it
Is just the way I try to survive

But sometimes I feel like I'm really going make it
I feel that in soul I'm not trying to fake it
I follow my heart but I drive with my brain
And I'm going to make it there is no other way

I know that the road is full of stress and depression
I turn on the lights to bring out motivation
Sometimes is too dark and I'm losing connection
I get lost in my head and I feel the aggression

I feel, I feel like I'm going through pain
I feel like I am the one getting lost
And now I'm looking for a better way
I'm searching for happiness I know is away
That's the only reason I am working all day
That's why I'm spending my time just being alone
Finding the real reason that I have been born

But no

People around just trying to give hard times
Many wanna see me fall and few wanna see me rise
That's why I don't really care about their opinions
Well I am human and I still have my feelings
I also get hurt but I hide away
Sometimes I am scared of waking up the next day

I feel like I wanna give up (Give up)
I feel like I wanna drop out (Drop out)
I feel like I'm thinking too much (Too much)
I mean I don't wanna be down (Be down)
I just wanna live and be proud (Be proud)
But is hard when I'm thinking out loud
But is hard when I'm breaking down
I feel like I wanna give up (Give up)
I feel like I wanna drop out (Drop out)
I feel like I'm thinking too much (Too much)
I mean I don't wanna be down (Be down)
I just wanna live and be proud (Be proud)
But is hard when I'm thinking out loud (Out loud)
But is hard when I'm breaking down
Yeah is hard breaking down
When I'm breaking down

Sometimes I really wanna start again
Sometimes I wanna be alone and think about how I'm going to improve my life and then
I start overthinking and I lose motivation
I bring negativity and lose dedication
I hear people saying that I'm not good enough
They always complaining about my own stuff

Why I'm getting affected by just random words
Why I'm being offended by people and hurts
I'm just living my life the way that I want
I should focus more and refuse to respond
To every body that is talking about me
I am a nobody but they can't live without me
I'm in the conversation even without me
I know I'm hated by people around me I see
I see

The way that they want me be
I don't care I'm just gonna be me
I have plans for my live and I want them to see

That I can follow my dreams and be happy in life
Even without the money or fame a prize
I'm going to make it even without a chance
This is the only option and I know that I can

I can do it, I can make it, I keep trying, I keep getting,
Affected when I'm overthinking and expecting
I'm gonna feel better one day and I know it
The storm will fade away and the wind is gonna blow it
The sun will come back and brighten the sky
The darkness will go and light will be high
(The light will be high)

(I feel)
I feel like I wanna give up (Give up)
I feel like I wanna drop out (Drop out)
I feel like I'm thinking too much (Too much)
I mean I don't wanna be down (Be down)
I just wanna live and be proud (Be proud)
But is hard when I'm thinking out loud
But is hard when I'm breaking down
I feel like I wanna give up (Give up)
I feel like I wanna drop out (Drop out)
I feel like I'm thinking too much (Too much)
I mean I don't wanna be down (Be down)
I just wanna live and be proud (Be proud)
But is hard when I'm thinking out loud (Out loud)
But is hard when I'm breaking down
Yeah is hard breaking down
When I'm breaking down