Russian Roulette Video (MV)

I broke down crying on my best friends birthday
I thought we were going to crash the van
We sat in that parking lot for what felt like days
Talking about how things could be better someday
I believed you then, and I still do
But I'm starting to think the world doesn't feel that way
I want to believe that someday we'll be happy
Just maybe not tomorrow , maybe not today

All my pills just stop working
All my friends keep disappearing
And the worst part is I don't even blame them
You don't deserve this, you never did I'm just a mess

Show up to the party 45 minutes late,
Lock myself in the bathroom.
Promise my reflection you'll have a good time this time,
I wish I could say the same.
I've been this way as long as I can remember
One thing for sure is I'm not getting better
I still believe in a world where I could be happy
Just maybe not tomorrow , maybe not today

All my pills just stop working
All my friends keep disappearing
And the worst part is I don't even blame them
You don't deserve this, you never did I'm just a mess

Cause I'm so lonely I'm so bitter, and I only hurt the ones I love
I might as well be a revolver so spin the chamber until I've got no one left

All my pills just stop working
All my friends keep disappearing
And the worst part is I don't even blame them
You don't deserve this, you never did I'm just a mess