Sad Video (MV)

It's like a constant struggle to find my own happiness
I had it but I lost it, now I have no clue what happy is
I used to be a happy kid
And did everything happy did
But, now I'm fighting sadness wondering where the f*ck happy went
I'm all up in my feelings, trying to open up to you
It's something that I seldom do, in fact I think it's never cool
But times have changed
And I've been told that it's ok
So I here I go, I'm sad today
And I don't know if that will change
I hope it does, I really hope it does
I wished these problems could be solved with a single hug
Or get brushed off with a shrug
And get swept under a rug
But they can't so I'll plunge
Down into the depths of the darkness deep within
My heart Hardens like its James at the three point for the win
And I don't know if I can keep on going living life like this
I'm getting caught up in the bliss and the happiness of others
While I suffer with this sadness as I watch it take me under, damn!
It's like a constant struggle to find my own happiness
I had it but I lost it, now I have no clue what happy is
I used to be a happy kid
And did everything happy did
But now I'm fighting sadness wondering where the f*ck happy went
Alright, hear me out
I'm gonna sit here on this couch
And rap to you my story so you can see what I'm all about
My parents were just people who never figured it out
They weren't evil or abusive
They were just never around
No affection in the house
I'm always searching for it now
The leaves on my family tree fell to the ground
Since a teen been seen as lost and never found
So I get lost in my dreams where loved ones gather round
It's like a constant struggle to find my own happiness
I had it but I lost it, now I have no clue what happy is
I used to be a happy kid
And did everything happy did
But now I'm fighting sadness wondering where the f*ck happy went
It's like a constant struggle to find my own happiness
I had it but I lost it, now I have no clue what happy is
I used to be a happy kid
And did everything happy did
But now I'm fighting sadness wondering where the f*ck happy went
I think it's time to turn a new leaf, f*ck it rip a tree down
It's like I haven't really laughed or smiled in f*cking weeks now
Every day I feel I'm inching ever closer to a freak out
And yeah I always bounce back but getting tired of the rebound
It's time to make a change before my mind becomes a maze
In which I cannot find a way to get out or escape
It's my time to be great and shine like china plates
So let's leave that dark past, march fast in life's parade
Cus it was a constant struggle to find my own happiness
But I found it and I'm astounded that I actually know what happy is
I used to be a happy kid
And did everything happy did
And now there so much smiles
I take trials with a laugh and grin!