Seconds Video (MV)

The clock ticks and so does this heartbeat
I keep track of the places where we meet
And avoid this same road
I don't wanna get close to you
I don't wanna break off what's left of me
Of me
Now
Don't pretend, don't pretend this isn't what you wanted
I can't figure out what I felt
Don't remember when I last slept, no
I'll be damned, I'll be damned if I was wrong
Cuz all I ever was was right
And I'm barely holding on, so
I'm trying to poke in but stay out
Narcissists keep watch while they count seconds
While they count seconds
Casually wallflowering
Others count beats while I count
Seconds
Seconds, yeah
While they count seconds
Seconds, yeah
While they count seconds
Seconds, yeah
Checking no one's texts on my phone
This is where I feel at home
Your risque poetry
Talking dirty to me
The vices and virtues of sinners
Turning out to be winners
And I'm staying in the snow outside
We accept the love we think we deserve
We deserve what we don't observe
Am I getting to you yet?
This is my loneliness
I'm trying to poke in but stay out
Narcissists keep watch while they count seconds
Seconds
Casually wallflowering
Others count beats while I count seconds
Seconds, yeah
While I count seconds
Seconds, yeah
While I count seconds
Seconds, yeah
Baby let the seasons change for you
Try to let the seasons change for you
I'm sitting in the backseat again
Can't tell if you're loving me or him
The clock ticks by
I think I care
See the rain on my window
Disassociating in my rearview
Lock me up in pieces, oh I wish I'd forget me
I'm trying to poke in but stay out
Narcissists keep watch while they count seconds
Seconds
Casually wallflowering
Others count beats while I count seconds
Seconds, yeah
While I count seconds
Seconds, yeah
While I count seconds
Seconds, yeah
While I count seconds
Seconds, yeah
While I count seconds
Seconds, yeah