Jones90 - 19 (Never Again) Lyrics

I don't forget or forgive told myself never again I don't let nobody in
Since a youth I always knew I would be great
Didn't know where to start I couldn't make a way
No idea there's a price that I had to pay
Let my mind travel can't stay in a safe state
Started making mental moves in my early teens
Had family had friends thought they were on my team
Found the truth the hard way so I had to change my scheme
Had no support when life started to make me lean
'09 a year I won't forget
No regret the best shit when I chose to disconnect
That year was a turning point in my life
Created distance felt it was only right
For some reason I came back
Got a new cell phone and this shit's whack
In order to get to the destination in my soul's map
I have to act the way I did when I f*cking snapped
Awe damn didn't think I'll be here again
Didn't think I'd relapse on this feeling
F*ck a phone, f*ck talking, f*ck a friend too
F*ck the internet f*ck a social group
F*ck this f*ck that f*ck everything
F*ck this f*ck that f*ck everything
F*ck this f*ck that f*ck everything
I'm going back to how I was at 19
Broke and solo that's when I made the most progress
Kept quiet stayed focused on my conquest
I'm dead inside I'm a man possessed
Hate talking when I do I always show respect
Started meditating that's when I realized
Relationship or friendship
Every ship I had capsized
Became the captain of my boat started skating more
With goals on deck I'm always on board
Won't connect too many are makeshift
I really hate this but I can't be basic
I won't fake it keep it G and I will make it
Trying to be liked is time wasted following is tasteless
Had to teach myself class not to be mean
I don't know a soul that can sit with me
People sucked the life out me about time they got weaned
I made the best choice of my life as a teen
Awe damn didn't think I'll be here again
Didn't think I'd relapse on this feeling
F*ck a phone, f*ck talking, f*ck a friend too
F*ck the internet f*ck a social group
F*ck this f*ck that f*ck everything
F*ck this f*ck that f*ck everything
F*ck this f*ck that f*ck everything
I'm going back to how I was at 19
F*ck this f*ck that f*ck everything
F*ck this f*ck that f*ck everything
No hate for the girls that ran when they wanted me
F*ck college those assholes stole my twenties
F*ck spending time complaining
About to pull a heist for my life I set arrangements
My consistent mood is not anger
I was beyond my years as a teenager
You can call me a Scrooge since I won't holler
If I duck the lazy then I'll retain dollars
Couldn't picture myself back in mind frame
Can't forget the day things severely changed
I never was the same
I never was the same
I never was the same
I never was the same
I never was the same
I never was the same
When I felt that pain when I was 19
And now I'm f*cking numb
And now I'm f*cking numb
And now I'm f*cking numb
And now I'm f*cking numb
And now I'm f*cking numb
And now I'm f*cking numb
And now I'm f*cking numb
And now I'm f*cking numb
And now I'm f*cking numb
Living with no regrets
And now I'm f*cking numb
And now I'm f*cking numb
And now I'm f*cking numb
And now I'm f*cking numb
You should see the shit I got tatted on my chest