WHY Video (MV)

Why do I feel like I'm stuck in a cycle
Spinning in circles, I'm lost in survival
Questions I ask but I never get answers
My thoughts are the cancer, the fear is the rival
I'm breaking apart but I mask it with laughter
The pain comes in waves and the silence comes after
I'm screaming for help but my voice doesn't a carry
Digging my grave and my burdens I marry
I'm living a life that I don't understand
A war in my mind and I'm losing command
I'm chasing the shadows, I'm lost in the dark
I'm lighting a fire but can't find the spark
Why do I run when I long to be seen
Why do I hide when I want to be free
I'm stuck in my head and it's hard to believe
That the enemy I'm fighting is really just me
Why do I hope when I know it's in vain
Why do I dance in the middle of rain
I build up these walls then tear them apart
A cycle of chaos that lives in my heart
Why do I write like I'll find resolution
Words in my head are just noise and confusion
Answers are echoes, they never come clear
I'm trapped in this loop of my anger and fear
I stand in the mirror and try to explain
Why I keep running from all of my pain
The cracks in my soul are hard to ignore
But I still keep searching for something worth more
Maybe the questions don't need a reply
Maybe the answer is learning to try
But here I am asking, my voice growing thin
Why does it feel like I'll never win
Why do I try when the weight never lifts
Why do I fight when there's nothing to fix
I'm chasing the pieces of what's left of me
A puzzle that's missing the key
Why do I run when there's nowhere to go
Why do I fall when I already know
I'm trapped in the silence, I scream but it fades
Lost in the questions I'm too scared to face
Why do I try when the weight never lifts
Why do I fight when there's nothing to fix
I'm chasing the pieces of what's left of me
A puzzle that's missing the key
Why do I run when there's nowhere to go
Why do I fall when I already know
I'm trapped in the silence, I scream but it fades
Lost in the questions I'm too scared to face
Why do I care when they don't even notice
I'm breaking my back just to keep my focus
They tell me to stop but they don't understand
I'm building a castle with grains of the sand
I fight for a purpose I can't even see
Trapped in a cage but I'm holding the key
The voices are louder, they scream in my ear"Give up the fight, there's nothing left here"
But I keep climbing though the summit feels fake
Each step I take there's more cracks in my faith
I'm bleeding my heart just to prove that I'm here
But all that's left is anger and fear
Why do I push when there's no one to save
Why do I smile when I feel like a slave
My mind is a war zone, a place I can't flee
The battle's inside and it's tearing at me
The pressure is building, I'm ready to burst
I'm chasing the light but it only gets worse
Why do I fight when I'm losing my will
A prisoner trapped in a house I can't fill
Why do I write like I'll silence the doubt
The more that I pour in, the less I get out
I'm running in circles, I'm stuck in a maze
Haunted by ghosts from my loneliest days
Why do I try when the weight never lifts
Why do I fight when there's nothing to fix
I'm chasing the pieces of what's left of me
A puzzle that's missing the key
Why do I run when there's nowhere to go
Why do I fall when I already know
I'm trapped in the silence, I scream but it fades
Lost in the questions I'm too scared to face
Why do I try when the weight never lifts
Why do I fight when there's nothing to fix
I'm chasing the pieces of what's left of me
A puzzle that's missing the key
Why do I run when there's nowhere to go
Why do I fall when I already know
I'm trapped in the silence, I scream but it fades
Lost in the questions I'm too scared to face