Jontee - Tmi Lyrics

Uh, yeah
It's tmi
I talk to much
Sweet tooth for the highs roll me a honey blunt
Couldn't find the light inside a thousand suns
Contain it in my lungs
Need some air
Need some place to go but life don't keep your fare
Bring me some thunder thighs need a place to fall from it's lonely up 100 miles
Seen this show a 1000 times
I talk to much
Keep my head up
Learn to hide it well
Thick skin, iron chin
I never heard no bell
Issues in the family ties
Different nomenclature
Rotten roots even you would have a bad nature
They say I talk to much
Nobody here to listen
Leave me alone inside my mind I'm tortured in this prison
Told its not for me
Ideally they would set you free
I really doubt the make believe
I tell you how it was for me
They love me when I perform
They love me when I perform
Said they love me when I perform
Said they love me
When I perform
Now Surely I'm suppose to be above the norm and surely all these highs and lows just reign inside a greatness storm
And formerly I felt the need to say it all
I talk to much
Rejection was a common thing
I'm toxic and I like to sing
I'm boxing in or out the ring
Drowning in my circle sorta hoped you'd coach me how to swim
I was judged to much
They watch my every move
Hotheaded forced to keep my cool
Built an armor livin in a shell
Lost my invitation somewhere in the mail
And what's a home you can't rest in
I talk to much, yeah I talk to much
To find time for stupid questions
I still talk too much I'm always feeling in a rush
They push and shove and punish till you cover up, and I won't tell a soul my problems adding up, it's too much
I see you mr silent judge
I never budge
In my school it flew drinks
Yeah sometimes they'd throw a punch
Bet it all on feeling free yeah silly me, we out of luck
Now I grew up but never left
Could have walked but took it literally when they said break a leg
Will you say a prayer, christian houses I hated judgment now I see it clearer
Put it on my name, I face challenges I needed change
I sat to silent
I talk to much, can't find that balance
Going on to this day still
That version of me I've forever killed
Yeah yeah yeah, jonathan tell me something new
But if I ever sleep I cant believe its true
Anxieties don't talk about it, not out loud
Remember but don't talk, it's not allowed
Nothing but some laughing matters I get good grades creatively I'm really challenged
Searching for some proud eyes, can they be got?
Tell myself I need to talk to god
But I'm still learning the weight of words
Tell em I hurt, always me who needs to change
I talk to much, so who could listen
Apologising is becoming my religion
I hate myself, they say it's problematic
You don't get it
I'm judged still sadly
See what I needed then, was nothing more but love
I don't know the feeling it'll never come
I talk to much, I know it well
Dependent on affirmations, if you couldn't tell
And surely I'd get smacked, told off its been rehashed
Told again what skills I lacked
And surely they would say that love is unconditional, I asked for some you made me pay for more
I gave it all, to write a single line yeah
The truth is I'm really terrified I've talked to much, like I broke the training
Learning to let go, but questioning if anything is still remaining