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Ya know
I've been thinking
All the things that I wanna try making
All things that I want to create
But I cant cause I'm scared that I'll more mistakes
And you're probably thinking that's ok
But its not
I don't really like to make mistakes
I don't really like to raise the stakes
I get uncomfortable and burn the stakes
Truth is I look down at the ashes
My past is full of different passions
Everyone I would say that I'm past them
But the last ones still got me grasping
You may really find odd why I'm like this
Why'd I write this
Why'd I even try this
Grab a chair buckle up its flight risk
Take a step in my thoughts theres a process
I've been writing for a while
I won't lie about it
Just a couple of you knew
I'd say I'm good at hiding
Got a project coming and I'm kinda stressing bout it
I don't really even know if I should talk about it
My minds been hazy
Driving crazy
Got me thinking maybe I should change it
But its been my dream and I really wanna make it
How I ever made it this far man it really just amazes me
Yeah
And I'm gonna keep it real honest
About the verses that I'm writing
I should work on em
About the lyrics I deliver I should work harder
Oh you don't really get the point
Im new artist
That's right yeah laugh it up
I know that I'm the last rap
I know that I'm not class enough
But at least I'm here to back it up
Well Jordan I don't really think you've ever been a rapper
Jordan you're loser and a poser and an actor
Jordan how you doin, is this really what you're after
Jordan you should really take that microphone and trash it
If you came to hate it gotta say that's pretty tragic
Pull up to your home with 30 speakers and a tablet
Break into your house and then I'll hang em from the rafters
Plug it up and then I'll blow the music from your attic
That's right yeah gods got a purpose
Imma play my cards right
God says I'm worth it
But if I sit back
And let my doubts deter me
Imma drop the mic and
Verify I'm worthless
But I can't do that
Drop this screw that
Take my thoughts
Screw them in my new lamp
Don't need your lamp shade shine right through that
Light bulb in my brain time for a new track
Yes these lyrics are pretty scary
Like a match in a burn ward
Telling me to quit I'll have you open up for my shows
Then leave you tied up in the front row
I don't need a hook nah
I let my verses do the grunt work
Keep it real PG
And leave you unconscious
Underneath the floorboards
I'm telling you the music here is something I've been living in
And i know its kinda scary but I'm fitting in
And I know I gotta work to make it anywhere
And I know that if i fail it's goin be everything
I ever wanted I can't lose it nah this ain't a game
Step in my circle I don't really care about the fame
Ill cut off anybody hating on me this my dream
Yeah
This is my destiny nothing left for me
If I ain't got the lyrics to push it then its the death of me
If I ain't got the fire to mortar on all the artist below us
Then every other artist probably get an ego to blow up
Its incredible
We level up a trend that's inevitable
Talking highly of these freshman double x-ing on medicine
Trapping women but then turn around a say
That not a single man that steps into your life has a
Shred of respect for you
It's so ignorant
What happened to the music that was diligent
Intelligent and relevant not music that's been mixed up with our sedatives
Been dimming us
Condemning us to everyone ahead of us
We follow them and coddle them
For poison that'll swallow us
I refuse to burn because of lyrics without god in them
I don't wanna be a lazy artist with the lot of them
You can put my name up in the charts cause imma throttle it
Maybe even see me with a grammy I ain't never want
A lot of you don't understand the lengths I'll go I promise you
Ill sign with you to link up on a track
Just to body you
Thinking I ain't savage when you ask
I ain't gone lie to you
I'll tear into the music with a passion like I'm Hannibal
Put me with the sheep like you the wolf I never heard of you
Funny that you thinking what you write is even lyrical
Its funny that you thinking what you write is even kinda good
Im sorry let me tone it down now I'm sounding kinda cruel
I don't need a gun for
I ain't gotta stunt for you
Offer me some money you can keep it
I'm not owing you
Maybe kinda cocky with my writing
But I know it's true
Yeah you got the best of me
Calling out the worst in you
I can take your payload
Comp it with a halo
Heroes never die
Chief coming where the game go
Shatter any opposition coming with dive flow
Step into your studio and win it like a game show
Passion is an understatement
Passion is a part of making
Developing a talent not for recognition
But crafting who you are to create a vision
I just wanna make a couple songs though
I just wanna help a couple minds grow
Building up a project for the end goal
Ya know write a couple bars for the long haul
Yeah
Tell me if I'm wrong though
Tell me if this all flops where should I go?
Should I drop it for a job I don't like
Nah
Just opinions I was kidding it's a thought though
See I'm thinking of future in the music field
How's the resume
Tell me did you get the feel
Did I overdo the writing
Thats a big deal
If i use too many words they might feel ill
But I guess that's fine though
What I do is not for them
It's a grind though
What I write is in my head
Keep in mind though
Everything that I have said
Just a small note
How you say it making moves thats what I'll do
Everything that I choose is a mouthful
All the lines are just proof it's what I do
Did I mention I feel all of this is over do