Josh Carlin - Everything I Wish I Didn't Hate Lyrics

Writing my life on vain dignity
Then scratching out each page
Stranded to decay
Cater these scars with my infancy
Eyes detect a blade
Eyes present a blade
Until my time runs out
Until my final glare
I'll rip up every sound
I'll gnash my teeth at air
You'll never reach my soul
It's far too proud to care
My fangs won't sink too deep
When joy is everywhere
It's never said and done
It's only black or white
Any and everything
So many hands to strike
No one's allowed to leave
Just try to run or hide
I'll shatter all my dreams
I still can't change your mind
I am an endlessly roaming inferno
So please
Stop feeding your heart to me
Keep it to my
Self
And I drown in mud
Let it all break
Out
And my toxins flood
Screaming out for
Help
From the smallest pinch
Stillness is a
Drought
That I lust to quench
Cry
Out my mind
Impeding
Lie
Undefined
Means nothing
I
Remain trite
Unchanging
I
Remain blind
Until all time runs out
Until its last affair
I'll rip apart each sound
I'll rip apart the air
Each planet must collide
Until then nothing's fair
No fang should sink too deep
When joy is everywhere
No wound is left untouched
No feeling's left to die
Any and everything
Could still attack my pride
Your scorn or your applause
They'll both deform my sight
I'll coat my skin with fire
I still can't change your mind
Every word ever said
Every thought ever had
Everything you've ever loved
And everything you've ever wanted
These
Are all the things
I wish I didn't hate
Uncuff my hands
Unsheathe the key
I'm redefined
You count to three
Eyes shift to red
You turn to flee
I persist to be me
Until my final breath
Until my final lie
I'll rip apart each sound
Subconscious paralyzed
I'll set aflame each thought
Amortal paradise
I can earn back the love
But I can't turn back time