SelfMedicated Video (MV)

Lately my heart just been bleedin
Wondering how im still breathing
Maybe it's all of this drinking
Maybe its all of this thinking
I was just tryna be decent
Then it all went on a descent
Misunderstandings burning the bridges i worked so damn hard to build
I dont know why God doin me like this i wanna ask what's the deal
Maybe he really don't like me
Sadly im thinkin it's likely
I dont what else to do
All of this shit i been through
All of this pain that i feel
Tired of keepin it real
Really been trying my best
Sadly i still been a mess
Bein weighed down with regrets
How much time do i have left
Lately it's feelin like less
I ain't been feeling my best
Hopin tomorrow be brighter
F*ck it i might just get higher
Gon and drink this you might feel a lil better
Gon and smoke this you might heal a lil better
Gon and pop this Know you feel a lil better
If it takes the pain away my nigga it's whatever
Really been tryna find meaning
Me and the spirit convening
He just be leaving me ringing
I don't know what that be meaning
Really i wanna be happy
Joy always come to me lastly
Maybe it's something i did
Back when ya boy was kid
Hopin it really ain't karma
Rotating round like a shawarma
Knowin i do not deserve it
Life Just be feelin so worthless
Why do i try shit why am i here
Thinking it's better if i disappear
Hopin this pain just might fade away
By sipping this wine or chugging this beer
Can't make decisions my mind ain't too clear
Tryna hold on to the things i hold dear
Tryna find ways just make it all right
Knowin these thoughts keep me thinking all night
Hoping one day i feel better
Tired of writing these letters
Tired of feeling so tired
This ain't the life i desired
Gon and drink this you might feel a lil better
Gon and smoke this you might heal a lil better
Gon and pop this Know you feel a lil better
If it takes the pain away my nigga it's whatever