Joshua Belliardo - How I Feel 'Bout You Lyrics

I've been waking up in the morning with a feeling in my chest
Cannot make any advancement and I need to go contest
Everything that I'm feeling it's really intriguing
Being alone and being a being who cannot seem to be a better brother
But besides the fact of the matter that I never tried to deliver you
A smile that you could grasp and keep inside of your mind
But never mind the matter
Cause a matter of fact
Saying that you ever did would be a f*cking lie
And I hope that you choke
On the words that I've wrote
Instead of all that f*cking pill smoke
And between every toke
You realize being satisfied immediately shouldn't ever be your goal
But here we are and in a matter of time
I know you'll find how tight this shit has grabbed you by your f*cking throat
And maybe you will get a grasp on life instead of lying to your family
About the way that you now cope

You f*cking let me down again and I'm f*cking done
I've never been a bad brother to you you've been one
Yeah I've been waiting for you to come and be a person who'd keep me afloat
Up in this life that made me want to run
Cause I've been struggling with shit and I thought my older brother would have a sturdy shoulder
He could offer to hold me up with
But I've been heavily mistaken this relationship has been forsaken you've pushed me away
And made me want to quit
But it ain't my fault
Not at all
But I can't f*cking nod this off
You've been trying so hard to make it right but at the end of the night
Through tiny cracks it begins to fall
You're always slipping right back into the hell that you've made your life about
Man, f*ck you haven't moved at all
At the age of 26 man
You were 24 the last time I was crying writing you a song
Where did it go wrong?

It's like it's taken control
The pills play a significant role
You need a different kind of failure to understand that insanity's definition
Is incredibly true as a whole
But doing the same thing
Over and over and over again only has had one consistent and and frequent variable
But doing the same thing
Over and over and over has only had one consistent and frequent variable
Man and and it's been you
That is the truth
Honestly what are we to do?
I'm just wanting to be a believer that you can break this horrible f*cking cycle
That continues it's hard pursuit
Cause it's becoming clear that it's been harping you
It's holding you down and been viciously stomping you
My entire point of saying all this
Is because I think you need a different perspective of existence
And point of view just to see you're worth it

Do you think you're worthless?
I mean you're far from perfect
But that doesn't mean that you deserve this
We're just scratching the surface and you need a different version
I know I'm sounding real harsh
But I don't see you changing and it's making me sick to tell you the truth
But your actions are making all of us suffer
You're lacking the hunger
So I just had to go and say some things 'bout
How I Feel 'Bout You

It's like it's taken control
The pills play a significant role
You need a different kind of failure to understand that insanity's definition is (Man)

It's like it's taken control
The pills play a significant role
You need a different kind of failure to understand that insanity's definition
Is incredibly true as a whole that's
How I Feel 'Bout You