Smile Jay Video (MV)

Hear me out though
Yeah
Uh
You know what I'm saying
I'll take it back
You know
He used to tell me this all the time
Uh
Yeah
My daddy used to tell me
Smile Jay
Turn it back around Jay
Why you never grin around us
My daddy used to tell me
Smile bruh
Huh
Listen
I couldn't tell ya
The reason that I step in the game and it's so familiar
Down goes my head
Another brick inside the building
They gauge the game I'll have in the morning by how I was feeling
Temperament was shaky
The anger in me chilling
The confrontation going on to the next
This commotion much worse
Like bad calls from a ref
My pops was Scott Foster
CP
I'm on the roster
Mama the mediator
They double tech too often
Losing love for it
This game can be exhausting
Turnovers the main ingredient
Mistakes in the game are mistaken for disobedience
It multiplies more than bacteria in a Petri dish
My coach told me flush it
The next play is immediate
Take the ball up the court
Make a move
Then the rock is bouncing off of my shorts
A scoop and a score
The body language on me is poor
I'm out of the game
Fear is on the scouting report
Post game
I'm locked into devices
Feeling lifeless
Cause my parents don't have the prices
Recognizing all the effort and sacrifices that were made so a youngin' could shoot and do the Mikan
Not excited
But the shouts that I hear were so enticing
If I get it right
Maybe the rest of me would like me
Or him at least
Currently on the search of a beast
For his approval
Maybe one day I'll be free
Instead
Back and forth's conquer the dominion
Securing the possession
Heated yells on the defensive
What happens there stays there
But naw
Imma say it
One night in Vegas
Mama faded
Telling me
We might not even make it
And she was right
It was similar to shots that I was taking
Ha
Ha
My daddy used to tell me
Smile Jay
Turn it back around Jay
Why you never grin around us
My daddy used to tell me
Smile Jay
Turn it back around Jay
Why you never grin around us
My daddy used to tell me
Smile Jay
Turn it back around Jay
Why you never grin around us
My daddy used to tell me
Smile Jay
Turn it back around Jay
Real talk
Huh
Listen
I couldn't tell ya
Why I walk inside the class
And the feeling was so familiar
My head down to rest
And Reggie makes an appearance
For him to poke his head was the biggest thing I was fearing
Laughs ring off
Felt like judgement day was coming
Look around the class
Please teacher just say something
But that should've been my stance
Same time I couldn't clap at ole girl like that
Cause they would see me as a lame
An insecurity was developing
Causing shame
Won't no slouch
But can't tell
My posture was one to blame
Didn't know what was wrong
Eighth grade
Losing my focus
Shortly after
Diagnosis was Scheuermann's Kyphosis
The damage done
Convinced my shorty I was too different
Made excuses for the split
But the lie was convincing
Fast forward
Nothing changed
It's the cause of the distance
My friends tell me I'm gifted
Try to filter these women
Said that I deserve the world
Please give me the earth
But realistically the pedestal is where I was hurt
It gets lonely at the top
And at the bottom it's worse
How so
If boffum can't perceive what they're worth
Purgatory takes the glory as I'm floating through life
Chronic headaches make me question how I sleep through the night
Anxiety keeps me inside
Please provide some insight
They always come to me for answers
Though not all of em right
My daddy used to tell me
Smile Jay
Turn it back around Jay
Why you never grin around us
My daddy used to tell me
Smile Jay
Turn it back around Jay
Why you never grin around us
My daddy used to tell me
Smile Jay
Turn it back around Jay
Why you never grin around us
My daddy used to tell me
Smile bruh
Real talk
For real though
Huh
Listen
I couldn't tell ya
Why I step inside the house and the feeling is so familiar
The anger in his voice
My mother would start to tear up
I hope I don't see him when I look inside the mirror
Maybe that's the reason why I'm deep inside reflection
But ironically those thoughts seem to limit my perspective
A commonality was us coming in second
Because pessimism rises when upbringings neglected
A limit in improvements
We vibe to the music
The weed in their life was the thing they were in tune with
Honestly
Think the flower kept the both of them together for too long because the high can hide the lows a little better
It brings em to a friendly place
Days of better weather
Where the sun smiles bright
As dust collects on sweaters
But romantically it's like trying to tell a fighter get up after Tank lands a left that sent the body to a shiver
Affection chopped liver
Toxicity the drug
Hard to take the cruise
We don't rock with banana slugs
Push and pull effect
But without the rubberbands
Hard to imagine happiness in the end
The weight is on my shoulders as I play into a sport
Where the meal all depends if you do show support
See monotony the chain that kept us here for a while
Hope you now understand why it's difficult to smile Jay
My daddy used to tell me
Smile Jay
Turn it back around Jay
Please just
Turn it around