jul-nov - better than before Lyrics

I admit I'm paranoid
To make a bad move and then I'll fall back into a void
With no way out
(No one to help me up)

I'm still scared sometimes
Just to wave a simple "hi"
To anyone that's passing by
Like they don't remember me at all

I admit, I burnt some bridges to make distance
It's better than always getting stitches
Caused by the same people all the time

It's all complicated to explain
So many trials till I found my way
I'm glad I left most of it all behind

Cuz now's still better than before
Further from the past I know for sure
I didn't know who I was anymore one time
Led to so many sleepless nights

Where would I be if I never tried to take
Those tiny steps towards that leap of faith
I don't want to know anymore
Right now is a whole lot better than before