Drenched in sweat, these memories flood in
All at once, and it overwhelms me
I make an attempt to line them up chronologically
But I fail to remember exactly where it all should be
Eyes gone bloodshot, face gone pallid
Too afraid to close an eyelid
Somniphobia is cruel
Broken down and out of fuel
Memories falling, body shaking
Simple things I am mistaking
About to lose to my hearts attack
It wants to sleep to bring you back
All my memories will fall down
Watch me stumble like a clown
Stuck on top of my bed I'm found
Broken glass covers the ground
Losing fight, My eyes close
And I drift into pastel rainbow
Bound by arms, sealed by her charm
For the first time in years, I feel far from harm
SHATTER THE MIRROR
DROWN IN THE WATER
Deja-vu strikes me down
Holding my head in the muddy ground
Water falls and fills the room
You were my air, I'll drown without you
MY SKULL IS ERODING
MY MIND IS IMPLODING
But as my eyes are forced open
And her visage fades away
I'm crawl across the empty bed where she used to lay
A year or two ago, or maybe just yesterday
I freeze in place as I start walking
My feet burn the ground starts talking
Shards of glass make up the flooring
Rain pours down, and winds start roaring
Paintless canvas, acetone stained
Desaturated as love waned
Memories fail me once again
A vicious cycle with no end
Now I wake up all alone
Weeping eyes on a sleeping throne
All these memories must collide
Why won't the nightmares subside
Fading out I fall asleep
Somehow, I'm found lost and deep
Blackened nothingness surrounds
Past terror and horror sounds
Now every morning bites and stings
On dreams I'm asphyxiating
Memories I can't seem to place
Mosaiced, out of order, they form her face
A trigger word and you are gone
Leaving without note or song
You left me trapped inside this maze
Sleeper agent avert your gaze
Mirrors dangling from the ceiling
Pictures of me down and kneeling
Emaciated, I'm just bone
Please don't let me sleep alone
All my memories will fall down
Watch me stumble like a clown
Stuck inside my head I'm found
Broken glass covers the ground
Mirrors dangling from the ceiling
Pictures of me, down and kneeling
Emaciated, skin and bone
Please don't let me sleep alone