J-Wolf - What Am I Doing? Lyrics

Oh, tell me are you satisfied with everything you've done?
Are you happy with all the failures that got you on the run?
Is it clear that all you wanna do is settle for less?
Couldn't trust process, now you feeling helpless
Should be learning ways out and not falling off the deep end
Sitting quietly like I accept all the sins that I commend
In all the shit I do, how could I not speak on true?
Walking with my head down like i'm giving problems an interview
I was just a little boy that looks up sky
At night, watching all stars come alive
So bright, beauty of the world got me paralyzed
No surprise, I ignore my light cause I just wanna pass the time
Maybe one day when I wake up i'll earn a little dedication
I'll be in my dreams on stage spreading love to the population
Imma open book with no words on the pages, no information
Flunk my signs of observation I just lack communication
No sense of going at all
Bring it all down on me, rainfall
By the look in your eyes
I can tell what story lies
Do you relate to mine?, yeah
It's getting kinda scary, day by day
I'm thinkin' shit I shouldn't be
Getting sad, crying out
I fighting demons I can beat
Me v me, alone
I'm the hero that I know that can beat this
What am I? What am I?
It's creeping up a cold, I can't fight it
All the stupid lies I tell myself
"I can't do it", "yes I can"
Blessed with some many gifts that I rip apart
From the heart, adding scars
I know I can beat this
What am I? What am I doing?
Ayo
Never had I ever pushed myself to the point as hard as this
Thankful for the family I got cause life was a hit or miss
Gen Z really grew up on the world and think they taught us this?
Make some noise if you think that love was just some counterfeit
Mrs. and Ms. please excuse me for the shadows your son's going through
I was walking so much off beat and now i'm back up in the loop
I don't even know where to start with the list of shit i'll do for you
Even with all the pain of love and tears and thoughts you put me though
Phone call to myself "why are you stepping down to a normal view"?
Keep your head up in that mirror cause I know it's hard to look through
I try to stay away from my wants despite all the shit i'm into
Can't fall to deep in that void cause it just might ruin your breakthrough
Dreams shooting to pay my mama back
Racing, my heart on cardiac
Real love, something I never had
Show where they keep the realist at
Show me who can stay the longest on top in battle and then take it back
Show me who can see me standing tall and then try to come knock me down
And please excuse me if I ever diss you but you just gon' feel this now
They woke the beast within and I don't think my closest can even stop me now
Say what you want but at the end of the day i'm gonna f*cking make it out
The world can look at me in any how
You f*cking crazy if you think i'm bleeding out
No sense of going at all
Bring it all down on me, rainfall
By the look in your eyes
I can see what story lies
Do you relate to mine?, yeah
It's getting kinda scary, day by day
I'm thinkin' shit I shouldn't be
Getting sad, crying out
I fighting demons I can beat
Me v me, alone
I'm the hero that I know that can beat this
What am I? What am I?
It's creeping up a cold, I can't fight it
All the stupid lies I tell myself
"I can't do it", "yes I can"
Blessed with some many gifts that I rip apart
From the heart, adding scars
I know I can beat this
What am I? What am I doing?