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People often ask me how I do it
How can you remain calm and stay unfazed by all the bullshit?
I tell 'em all the same thang
I never give a f*ck about what they think
I've been on a mission tryna find peace within myself I got a lot inside this twisted mind of mine
I'm fighting demons all the time I've been tryna keep my composure
I've been tryna stand my ground
But it's really hard when a lot of people tryna knock you to the ground
Friends switched up
Momma starting to have her doubts
Locked myself away that night and cried my f*cking eyes out
But my lady told me "Calm down I'm here everything gon' be alright now"
Don't know what I'd do without her she deserves more than some flowers and the same 3 words I tell her damn near everyday
I love you
Not even my family tells me that shit and I've been quick to jump into shit
It got me pondering about what I could've done for them to no longer want me around
Yeah no longer want me to come down and visit
You claiming that you love me I need to ask my girl to hug me since y'all never wanna comfort me
I've never felt safe inside my so called home I've been alone most of the time hiding all the pain I hold inside
Breaking down day at a time
Don't know how much longer until I break
Until I break and tears start flowing down my face
I have a fear of doing too much
I have a fear of doing too much, most of the times I feel like I'm doing too much
I'm constantly apologizing to my lady
She assures me that everything is good and never worry
As I would never be too much for her but yet I still have a feeling that's inside my gut
That one day she's gonna feel like she's had enough and pack her shit and leave me in a rut I know you said you love me baby
And I love you too
But it's just a thought I can't help
Dread the day that I wind up losing you
Hope that nightmare doesn't blossom up into truth