Kaho Matsui - absolver Lyrics

Twenty four, i climb onto the roof of my apartment
It's awfully quiet, i'm awfully joyful
You don't seem to feel the same as me
Didn't ask if you feel better, or even just the same
You stare into your can, then turn to me
I don't stare back, i kept my eyes shut

Twenty five, i'll throw a fit over a missed flight
The one i missed right before you died
You don't feel the same, but you pretend
I stare into your ceiling, then nothing
You stare into my pained expression, then it stops

I want to hear that one joke
It's funny when you say it
I want to play the footage over and over again

Twenty six, i climb over the hill to see
I still have a long way to go until something happens
Or something matters
I still think i feel the same all the time
Stare with my vision blurred
Teary eyed, asking if it's worth the time i'm spending with you

Twenty seven, i can't stop crying
Brush my fingers against the parts where it skips
Absolver, can you understand me for once
Do you ever feel the same?