Kalek - Heaven Hill Lyrics

Speedin' down the freeway
With my eyes closed
Haven't slept in three days
Lookin' like a white ghost

I've been racin' like a relay
As I walk the tightrope
Please, come in and be seated
Watch the suicide show

For my life, I've been pleading
But it's time to die slow
All this pain that's impeding
Feelin' like I might choke

It's lookin' like it's time to say
Goodbye to my hope
Ugh, yeah, goodbye to my hope

Watch my body bleeding
No need for tourniquet
Take a drag off a cigarette
And press it to my wrist

I won't press the issue
Pressin' blades through my tissue
I wish I didn't miss you so
I don't have to forget you

No one hates me like I hate me
Someone come and save me
From the pain that I feel daily
There's been no hope lately
Yeah, no hope, no hope

Rolled up, dollar bills
Cut straw, made me feel
I get lost, in these pills
I dissolve to Heaven Hill

Rolled up, dollar bills
Cut straw, made me feel
I get lost, in these pills
I dissolve to Heaven Hill

I feel broken and hopeless
I'm ropin' these hoes in
I'm copin' with coke, till
I float in the ocean

I don't do this for you
I just do it for me
So, I can get release
From the things that I see

All these visions in my dreams
And these dark entities
Lookin' like they're enemies
But they're all friends to me
Tell me, what you're offering me
Yeah, offering, offering

I've been feeling like, I've been killing everything
I've been dealing with all of these things that bring me pain
But I conquered them all and now I am the king
Even when my lifeline is just hanging by a string

When I'm happy it seems that I'm just tryna change that
Searching for anything to bring the pain back
Grab the pistol, cock it back and then I aim at
My temple, pull the trigger then I let my brains splat

Rolled up, dollar bills
Cut straw, made me feel
I get lost, in these pills
I dissolve to Heaven Hill

Rolled up, dollar bills
Cut straw, made me feel
I get lost, in these pills
I dissolve to Heaven Hill

I've been struggling, struggling
I've been struggling, struggling
I've been struggling, struggling
Yeah, it's all that I know

I've been struggling, struggling
I've been struggling, struggling
I've been struggling, struggling
I've been driving real slow

I've been struggling with depression
It's got me grippin that weapon
It's that loaded Smith and Wesson
No, I never learned my lesson

F*ck it, I'm a end my stressing
Ah, give my family a blessing
I've always felt life's like a test and
I've always felt like I'm less than

Rolled up, dollar bills
Cut straw, made me feel
I get lost, in these pills
I dissolve to Heaven Hill

Rolled up, dollar bills
Cut straw, made me feel
I get lost, in these pills
I dissolve to Heaven Hill