Self Destruction (feat. Breana Marin) Video (MV)

I'm just a ticking time bomb
I thrive in the self destruction
And it's just a matter of time
Matter of time before I
Matter of time, matter of time
Before I, matter of time before I start to blow up
Momma asked me what's wrong with me
So I lied and just said I need rest
This bully at school, we collide and he beats me speechless
And I just feel weak I'm depressed besides I'm a geek in cheap sweats
Kids call me alien, won't let me play hide and seek at recess
They isolate me now they think I do voodoo
How can you label me weirdo cause I don't speak the way you do
Due to me feeling like shit I keep my notepad and I doodle
I hide feelings behind the bars I write and seek your approval
My girlfriend's been eyeing this new kid name Antonio Baker
I know he goin take her
He carried her portfolio papers all the way to math class
So I've been gettin laughed at and that ain't even half bad
My autographed hats in the trash bag
But I just want my dad back
Recalling the conversation we last had
My peers pointed me out for graffiti but I didn't write that
The teacher said stand up now, since writings what you're nice at
I stood up in front of the class and I said
I'm just a ticking time bomb
I thrive in the self destruction
And it's just a matter of time
Matter of time before I
Matter of time, matter of time
Before I, matter of time before I start to blow up
My uncle comes home, hits auntie then goes nephew go play
I can hear auntie scream through the window of the door frame
Deep down in my heart I wanna defend but I'm only in 4th grade
My only distractions been Nintendo 64 games
So I play Mortal Kombat and pretend those kicks cause your pain
Ooou if I was older, I would end your shit at your age
I'd go buy me a brand new extendo clip and 4 gauge
Arrange your funeral then go attend your shit distraught faced
Auntie can't stand to watch you walk this domestically raging path
Disrespectful degrading wrath
You're a skeptic it made him mad
I'm protective I stated that
My perspective, I hate his ass
And I understand we just gotta miss electric to pay the gas
That's why this rap shit I swear I'ma perfect it and slay the craft
All the hardship we go through now will be corrected to outweigh the past
I'm proud that I'm nothin like these niggas by choice entirely
Opinions don't mean shit, I define me
I'm just a ticking time bomb
I thrive in the self destruction
And it's just a matter of time
Matter of time before I
Matter of time, matter of time
Before I, matter of time before I start to blow up