The Calamity Video (MV)

Hey you
Is there anybody in?
I'm tapping on your window
I need a home
I'm cold out here
I'm freezing
I need acceptance
I've been disruptive
I've been a devil
I just need to confess
I need, I need, I need, I need, I need
I need, I need, I need, I need this
To feel holy again
And I see (Step back)
The tricks I play (Hideaway in the closet)
Fall down right in front of me (And I tell myself)
And I know I'm not worth it
Deserve to be deserted
It's a journey
And I'm not even close
No matter how hard I clasp my hands
No one is listening
Oh God, you better believe it
With tears in my eyes
I strike at the heart
When I'm done stabbing
He won't get up
No father
No deity
No friend
Just me
And I see
Those tricks I played
Fall down right in front of me
We confess
We're cheating ourselves (I've killed my deity)
We confess
We cheat ourselves (Blood spilled, I'll drink my fill)
I'm not a calamity
I'm not a calamity
God is dead. God remains dead and we have killed him
How shall we comfort ourselves?
The murderers of all murderers?
What was holiest and mightiest of all that the world has yet owned has bled to death under our knives
Who will wipe this blood off us?
What water is there for us to clean ourselves?
What festivals of atonement, what sacred games shall we have to invent?
Is not the greatness of this deed too great for us?
Must we ourselves not become gods simply to appear worthy?
And I see (Step back)
Those tricks I played (Hideaway in the closet)
Fall down right in front of me
Now I know I'm not worth it
Deserve to be deserted
It's a journey and I'm not even close
I've got this struggle in myself
I'm not a calamity
I am the calamity
I'm not a calamity
I am the calamity