Running (Self Destructive) Video (MV)

Overactive paranoia always thinking
That a plots about to unfold
Can't trust no one because all the people
I done trusted up and left me exposed
Never thought that I deserved these crimes
Guess it could be karma over time
Racked enough up from these deeds of mine
Details retell every tale of mine
Been a liar cheated death few times
Thieving in these streets just for a dime
Hurt some bitches
Broke some hearts
Sold some dreams
Treaded laws
Guess I'm posed to fall
Never thought back thought that I'd avoid
All the pain to others I deployed
Write my sins to right these deadly wrongs
Shoulda apologized all along
Tryna turn face hard to face it all
Legs are weary running through the storms
Groundhogs Day until I see what's wrong
Urge to shut down tryna fight it off
Lower my arms not to fight at all
Open my arms to embrace you all
Please just excuse all my wounds and scars
Some are self inflicted
Some from war
Niceties in life I do strive for
Just can't shake my psyche trying hard
Hate that I'm hardwired this way Lord
I been tryna find a new to path or
New ways for me to repave old ones
Repaint lines and dust the concrete off
Brush the leaves and leave those problems gone
Looks like Ima start new race Lord

Tried to outrun all that I held in
All these shadows then just grew within
Tried to outrun all of my secrets
All these sounds then felt like whispers damn
Tried to outrun all of my darkness
All these lights and I can't see ahead
Tried to outrun all that I am
All I did was trip myself again

I been running running running running
But my legs ain't carrying me fast enough
I been running running running running
But my legs ain't carrying me fast enough
I been running running running running
But my legs ain't carrying me fast enough
I been running running running running
But my legs ain't carrying me fast enough

Overwhelming pessimism
Labeled realist
Real enough that God can feel me
Slim my presence when I'm present in a room
Shadow scoping
Through the cracks I loom
Lax in tension paid attention I've
Been deflecting just reflecting on
Days when faded states could bring me up
Now I'm up here tryna get back down
Throwing good hands
While I fight depression and
Suicidal thoughts
And ghosts of my past
Tryna kill all fear in self
Cause fear itself
Aint reel in self
To realign with self
Just on a mission in case yall missed it
Really quite simple to be specific
See no
Speak no
Fight and
Kill the evil
Hear me now or
Just look up to see me
Faced the sun to overcome cloud envy
Got recharged and reigned down on the city
Lightening bolts in hand to lay enemies
Water to pour life back in those near me
Every storm has purpose see now love
Overcame my struggles yes you up
Turned my tragedies into triumphs
Inhale exhale breathe in walk with us

Tried to outrun all that I held in
All these shadows then just grew within
Tried to outrun all of my secrets
All these sounds then felt like whispers damn
Tried to outrun all of my darkness
All these lights and I can't see ahead
Tried to outrun all that I am
All I did was trip myself again

I been running running running running
But my legs ain't carrying me fast enough
I been running running running running
But my legs ain't carrying me fast enough
I been running running running running
But my legs ain't carrying me fast enough
I been running running running running
But my legs ain't carrying me fast enough