Stuck in this Melody can't find no peace
World's gone black fightin' demons in these streets
Screamin' silent a desperate plea
Will the day ever come I'm finally free?
Fifteen years deep trapped in this game
I was hiding the chase always looking for dope's flame
Nobody peeped the secret shame
Then the shadows set in where sunlight should have reigned
Always a "yes man" never learned to say "no"
Caught up in their hustle sold my soul to fit in lost myself in the show
Faking a grin whil inside battling the pain
Stayed behind the mask I'd wear hidin' feelings of guilt and shame
Built my life on pleasing others now am lost and wrecked
Lines I crossed scars run deeptried to keep myself checked
I see a broken reflection dont recognize cant comprehend
Lost myself tryin' to please everyone now view life with a broken lens
Stuck in this Melody can't find no peace
World's gone black fightin' demons in these streets
Screamin' silent a desperate plea
Will the day ever come I'm finally free?
Winter '21 the secret's out and rehab where I can take back control
I did my program returned with a restored soul
Thought I was free nearly 2 years sober good place to be
But then dad's called to heaven darkness started to creep
Grief hit hard turning to white quick escape
"Just for kicks" they say trippin' but they dont feel my disgrace
They don't see the demons trying to control my perception
Its a warzone in my head but they think it's a choice sometimes the mind acts without permission
When the battle rages the world's a blur
Every nerve screams the cold sweats like am in deep water
Like a caged beast ready to fight the urge is also ready to win
Mind knows it's wrong but the urge convinces the body to splurge
Pressure builds like a time bomb tickin'
Not for the high for the shame on what I'm pickin'
Logic fades the devil's got my mind trippin'
Not a choice it's the addiction's grip God Help me I'm slippin'
Pushed away fam caused deep hurt
This is real life constantly on alert
If they could see through these bloodshot veins
The war within the guilt the dirty stains
Don't wanna hurt 'em tears me up inside
But the beast controls this heart at times I can't hide
Not about highs or a quick fix ride
Just a desperate plea trapped in the dark side
Stuck in this beat can't find no peace
World's gone dark fightin' inner beasts
Screamin' silent a desperate plea
Will the day ever come I get these chains off of me?
Will the day ever come I get these chains off of me?