survivor's guilt (voice memo) Video (MV)

Am I still myself?
Do you still need help?
Am I all out of time?
Am I still in the right?
What if I am wrong?
Will they throw me out with the lost?
What happens if you break?
Will everything change?

Will I let everyone down?
Will I lose what I found?
Will I still be able to rebuild?
Is this survivor's guilt?
How does an ultimatum feel?
Is it like driving without a wheel?
What's it like to feel safe?
Will they still cherish my name?

Put me in the ground instead
I'd rather die than be exiled
I have so much to confess
Spent my life in denial

Rip my heart out of my hands
Burn our memories in my face
Cut me deep with shots of glass
Let me die to the pain
Raise my soul from the dead
Take a lighter to my grave
Tear the skin, tear the flesh
Smile as I decay
Let the blood river flow
Pay me back for my mistakes
When my story has been told
Preach to them of all of my shame
Light a blaze in my mind
See to it that they do the same
And when I finally die
Soil my resting place

If I ever
Cause you pain
Then forever
I shall wait
If you go
Into the dark
I can't follow
But I swear to God
When I get there
I will find you
So don't be scared
I'm behind you
So for your sake
And for mine
Stake your claim
And we'll live our lives

Am I still myself

Is this survivor's guilt