[ Featuring Sa1nt ]
The other night I had this thought (I had this thought)
Maybe I should end my life (End my life)
They tell me 'Youngin, life is short' (Life is short)
I was tryna prove them right (Prove them right)
Check my shit I'll show you scars (I'll show you scars)
Bro I've just been losing sight (Losing sight)
It's 2 AM I'm writing bars (Writing bars)
My demons like to come at night
Man lately I've been tripping
I've been smoking I've been sipping
I've been thinking life just isn't
Worth living something been missing
I start a song and I don't finish
What's wrong shit I feel different
No motivation I don't get it
I fill the bong with smoke in it
Take that shit in and relax
But f*ck it man I can't do that
So many thoughts in my head right now that f*ck it man I can't do that
Did a show and I f*cked up
F*ck it man I was f*cked up
Practiced more and I bucked up
Did another show and I killed that
Booked another show then canceled
F*ck I feel like an asshole
Didn't want to I had no money
Who bought tickets? Dog nobody
That f*cked me up I was so hurt
Didn't wanna make raps no more
My friends bailed dude what the f*ck
Screw this shit I'm giving up
2003 I wanted to die 2004 I wanted to die
2005 I wanted to die 2006 I wanted to die
2007 I wanted to die 2008 I wanted to die
2009 I wanted to die 2010 I wanted to die
Gon' be like this for the rest of my life
Did a few things that f*cked up my life
Like the cocaine and that damn DUI
I was number than shit I was barely alive
F*ck, I was snorting lines
Almost stopped my heart just a few times
Paranoid with twitchy eyes
At one point it was every night
All I could think about all on my mind
Took all my money spent every dime
Back on my shit and I'm killing these rhymes
I'm really thinking that this is my time
I want it all want it right now
Got a pen and pad and my dope mind with kush all up in the pipe now
The other night I had this thought
Maybe I should end my life
They tell me 'Youngin, life is short'
But I don't wanna prove them right
