Drove past that coffee shop chain on the A11
Like we always do on the way home
Today it reminded me of you though
The first time I got to know your dreams and hopes
My friend made fun of the way you spoke the other day
It wasn't meant to be mean
But it didn't make me feel okay
I thought I was over you
But it still hurts just as much
When I think about that late summer day
Under seasoning trees
Being crawled over by bugs
Eating supermix as you asked for hugs
And held my hand
Now I haven't seen you for months
And I miss watching you sing in your band
One last hug before you turned off my street
Then came the droplets that seeped into my clothes
And weaved deep into my skin
As I closed the door
And let everything sink in
A drowning sensation
The air snatched from my lungs
I could only shake my head
When I saw my mum at the door
You were everything I'd wished for
Nine months earlier I'd closed the door
And beamed from ear to ear from hours of having you near
To be honest I'd known it then
That I didn't want to be your friend
You told me later that you'd felt the same
On a sofa, after we kissed playing that game
Though never again
It was one last hug before you turned off my street
I couldn't bear to watch you leave
Down that path where the trees were still green
Now those leaves are on the floor
And I trample them when I walk to school
Where I first met you
I miss you
I miss you and all the little things you'd do
When it was just us two
Your face lit by the hospital lights
Reflected in the glass
I see that face in most people I pass
And I think of your glistening eyes
Back in that park
And everything goes dark in mine
I miss you