Swallow all my sorrows, now I'm thinkin' bout death
Get me out the media, not tryna be in the press
Build up my name, now they hatin' my success
Mind get to stressin', light another cigarette
Rinse the tap, wake up lookin' like a mess, huh
Lots on my chest, still feelin' depressed
Guess you just like the rest, saw me at my low
You won't see me at my best, girl, it's nothin' new
Girl, you left me feelin' blue, I wish it wasn't true
Now the flowers there are dead, don't know what to do
Hate wakin' up, lickin' like a loose screw
Girl, I've crossed the line, tryna find a f*ckin' sign
Left my soul feelin' burned, girl, you let me drop like a bomb
Suicidal thoughts keep floodin' in my mind
Wishin' for a text, askin' me if I'm fine
Lost all of my friends, I think I just wanna die
Castle on a hill with a big metal gate
Get your makeup ready, take you on a dinner date
I know it's in the past, girl, but I'm tryna make a change
Don't let the feelings fade, I know I left you in pain
I know, I know it's on time, hella late
Feel the pressure on my shoulder, girl, I feel the weight
Tryna clear my mind, girl, I'm takin' trips outta state
Tryna buy more time, wishin' I could just rewind
Winter comes and I'm still feelin' burnt
To the ones I lost, I hope you know I hold you in close
Cuz, cuz, I'll never let go of all the times we had
Wishin' I could see you one more time, cuz
It haunts me at night, I can't even sleep
When I got the call, I dropped to my knees
Heart got to racin' and my feelings wore weak
Tryna process what happened, I couldn't even speak
Late at night, I let it get to me
Dark world, but I'm tryna let my mind grow
Everyone took it fast, now I took it very slow
Late at night, hit your phone, tryna hear a voicemail
Only thing I got that reminds of you
I promise I won't let you down, I won't fail
Cuz I can't let you down, you watchin' over me
You hear my screams, tryna send a sign
Every time I dream, I see your soul shine
At least I know you made it up to heaven
At least I know you're fine
Come right back, I've been waitin' for you