Is Something Testing Me? Video (MV)

I would have vivid dreams of dying
Launching myself from the top of a staircase
I would spend hours trying to figure out
What that means

I was locked inside my head
I was visibly a mess
I didn't want to go out or even get dressed
What does that mean

Its hell having to think the way I do
I would say come step in my shoes
The feeling comes creeping in and now i'm feeling blue

The bad luck repeats
I can't bring myself to eat
Why does this keep on happening to me