Can't decide if I love myself or not
I can seem them in the back i know they plot
She been waiting on the day i tie the knot
Picture perfect when it click, no photoshop
Not cropped out, they don't wanna show love
When i pop out
I been looking for the drugs, calling thoughts out
Ain't nowhere to run, you ain't got to dance around it
Don't talk loud, ending in a fall out
It's not eye to eye
It's more than a talk if we defending sides
You wanted to know, so i told you mine
Opened up about how i feel but it don't apply
Every song i write I'm holding my breath
Tryna drop another one for my couple fans
They gate keep it like the smoke that I'm holding in
Someone book me for a show i'll hop on a jet
Like no regrets
Like fly away
Like f*ck this life
Like f*ck today
I'm by the phone
Waiting on a call
I stood forever in the f*cking rain
From now on its f*ck them
My circle turned into a dot
End of a thought, carry on semicolon
Backed out but I'm back now
Been a minute your voice
It ain't playing with my head now
Barely breathing
I was needing you
Were nowhere to be found
Looking stupid, now the music
Wanna do me to my sound
Bumping theses tracks on my f*cking grave
I'll get lit inside my coffin, hear a skeleton shake
Don't forget the lighter, if you wanna talk don't pray
Look down throw me duces, i chose this way
Bitch I'm entrapped Inside these raps
I'm stuck here perpetually no coming back
Socially awkward don't know hot to act
And they all sound the same so ill pick up the slack
Slinging the this to slinging the that
The hash slinging slasher I'm rolling da gas
I've always felt like being myself is bad
Fronting emotions that I never have
Manic depressed all alone fighting stress
Panoramic its dead to the right and the left
"really wanna die in the night time" quoting x
Fight for my life right up to my last breath
Close to the end and I'm close to the edge
Hard to pretend, when i was left seeing red
Still I'm making amends, in the dark where i pled
Only a spark theres no light
When the devil wanna dance