you never left me, so i wont leave you Video (MV)

Nah , i ain't been feeling myself
On the low, I've been thinking about killing myself
Load up and go hit the road ill come back with some wealth
Pay off the mortgage for my mom that's a dream in its self
Brought up off older ways, and microwaves
Cause mamas working late. id do anything
But with this nine to five shit i cant get you straight
This is me explaining how i fell with shit that i cant say
If i blow up off of rap, you the first one getting paid
You love it when i play you all my songs
But something is wrong
"you don't mean what you say, you got it wrong "
But when Jason left , he held me tight and told me to be strong
I vividly remember he said " you be strong for mom"
So i locked it down, for you i build a different type of bond
Like I'm right there if you need me, but emotionally I'm gone
Its not a lie, i wrote it down and weighted the pros and cons
But when it comes too you i rip the list up looking dumb
I reminisce about the effort that you give,
I love hearing the stories about the crazy things you did
Might not had a a lot of money but its bout the time you spend
And as an only child with no dad my mom was my best friend
Not to understate it, but like your my biggest win
So of course i put the best side of me up when u walk in
I can let you see me down, i made a promise as a kid
I've kept good on my word, he ain't come back so hear i am
Damn...