I light this blunt and I start panicking
But it was supposed to stop the panic attack
So I plan again
Get into some shenanigans and take a sip of Vodka
Start looking into Ambien
Bouta contact a doctor
Let me be a bit more clear
The Vodka didn't work
Unless I downed it with the Tequila to stop the hurting
I'm tryna find a mamacita but got trauma with Latinas
I can't let the past depict the future of my penis
These evenings are sad
Though these nights are no joke
I kinda do miss laying next to what's her name, though
I know we have our problems
We're thinking they can never be fixed
And when I'm dead I guess that I'll forever be missed
To be for real we don't gotta live this life this way
I could text you right now and end this fight today
Or we could cyber-stalk each other on our Instagram page
And feel betrayed cause the other found a lover that stayed
Dinner date plans, engagements, babies thats on the way
Trips to Japan, then Cali, then Vegas another day
Wondering who they've been messing with
Checking this, checking that
Ain't even happy that this other bitch texting back
Cause I want you and you only
See you say you in love with me but you can't forgive the old me
You don't owe me
I know I used to make it feel that way
I'm truly hoping you're happy when without me
Feeling great