Lactic - A Nothing Machine Lyrics

I think I finally had enough, a moment of your time
I'd like to share a story, this fragile world of mine
It won't take long, I promise, just a couple years
To tell you about my journey, and how I ended here
To start we'll call her heartbreak, it all began in red
It happened fast and did not last, my pale orchids said
You are not at fault here, but the jury won't acquit
We sentence you to heartbreak, it's better to submit
A boy resided silently, I accept he said
I've laid and ironed cotton, it's time to lie in bed
When he awoke from slumber, hazy and confused
We reached the next story, it all began in news
Now we'll call her grievance, she left at the right page
Another sentence to endure, I guess I'll disengage
An inch from my own ears, you really are just cursed
Go ahead, ignore it, I'm sure it'll just disperse
I'll keep my eyes from caskets, they can't always follow me
Drown myself in flaskets, suppress who I'm meant to be
I know that I don't want this life, but haven't done much planning
I need to get these off my chest, and the thoughts that I've been having
Last there was a leaking, a hazardous effect
It wasn't done deliberately, it was closer to neglect
I see my vision fading, consciousness dissolved
My safety is now wading, my feet are always cold
The air that I've been using, the breathing that has sung
The music that you're hearing, was stolen from my lungs
Thank you for your patience, and hearing me till now
I'm doing fine, I promise, I just needed to let it out