I'm waiting for the tears to fall that will finally wash the pain away
For the years to crawl that will take me to another day
I'm waiting to awaken every hidden part of me
Even as I forsake the family
How can I accept the truth I've rejected all my life
Out of the need to survive
And now I am expected to see how I've been infected
With a shroud of your deviance and lies
I'm waiting for you to call and tell me what you cannot say
This is not your fault, you are not to blame
I'm waiting to resolve the past and deal with who I've become
Drink the bitter gall and let it be done
Once I had to fight the memories of the night
Now I believe
You accuse me with delight but what I've done is only right
I have to let my spirit learn to breathe
But I'm waiting for the moment when this wall will not divide my heart
When I've mended you've relented and we'll no longer have to be apart
I'm waiting for my prayer to catch a star to fall and be your guide
Waiting through this earthly stretch and if you must, upon the Other Side
I'm waiting