The cigarettes drown out the pain
And they melt away the ice
That's inside of my veins
I always tell myself that I'm gonna make change
But it's never gonna happen
And that's okay
Yeah, that's okay
At least that's what I tell myself when I'm in a rage
When I'm stuck with just my thoughts and feel like I'm in a cage
Got these self-inflicted wounds I wish that I could erase
I can't start another book when I'm still stuck on this page
Still stuck on this page
Still stuck on this page, page, page
Yeah, yeah, yeah
I don't know why but I never let go
Soak in the pain when I'm drinking alone
Sit like a rock, now I'm skipping the stone
Told me I'd never be good on my own
Stay in the ring when I'm losing the fight
Walk through the dark when I don't see the light
I don't know why but I think that I'm fine
Even though part of me just wanna die
I don't think that I'll make it out
Climbing up but then fall back down
Now I sit and just wonder how
I ended up on my best friend's couch
I'm most alone when I'm in the crowd
Wish I could make my own damn self proud
Should take a breath but I'm running out
The cigarettes drown out the pain
And they melt away the ice
That's inside of my veins
I always tell myself that I'm gonna make change
But it's never gonna happen and that's okay
Yeah, that's okay
At least that's what I tell myself when I'm in a rage
When I'm stuck with just my thoughts and feel like I'm in a cage
Got these self-inflicted wounds I wish that I could erase
I can't start another book when I'm still stuck on this page