Lanessan - sober. Lyrics

In my head on the run, thinking I'm having fun
It's five o'clock in the morning, I'm shaking
Getting drunk in my car, to getting kicked out of bars
I think I took it too far, now lately
I'm taking shots all alone, breaking rocks on my phone
Screaming into the dark, you can't save me
Till I was almost a ghost, the ones who loved me the most
I wind up breaking their hearts now daily
Don't say I'll never get sober
I see the words on every hour I let go
Don't say I'll never get sober
It's written underneath my eyes, oh heaven knows
Don't say I'll never get sober
Now I'm losing control, I wonder where did it go
A shadow of what I used to be, dying
While I poison myself, as though I think it'll help
Through seven circles of hell, down I'm climbing
Made a lot of mistakes, and more than I care to say
I always blame someone else, but I'm trying
There's still a dream in the ash, and when I get myself back
A trail of flame in the sky, I'll be shining
Don't say I'll never get sober
I see the words on every hour I let go
Don't say I'll never get sober
It's written underneath my eyes, oh heaven knows
I see it
On every red bottle cap that's stacked on my windowsill
On every dime I don't have, on every rolled dollar bill
On every night that I lost, on every drink that I spill
On every scar on my legs, on every hospital bill
Don't have the courage to face it, give me another pill
I can't believe I'm still standing, why am I standing still
I see the words on every hour I let go
It's written underneath my eyes, oh heaven knows I see it