To Be Honest Video (MV)

To be honest I cant wait to die
To be honest I cant even try
To be honest I feel like this often
I'm just so exhausted
Its dark in this coffin
I'm stuck in the darkness
Stuck in those eyes I got lost in
The ones so cold I got frost bit
With all of the demons they brought in
I think that I've lost it

To be honest I cant wait to die
To be honest I cant even try
To be honest i just wanna get high
And pretend it's all fine
But it's all just a lie
I cant tell you why
You're still crossing my mind
I've had nothing but time
In the city at night
Under those lights
The ones that were bright
On those darkest of nights
Cant tell you why
Your still crossing my mind

To be honest I cant wait to die
To be honest I cant even try
To be honest I don't even miss you
Just all the feelings we went through
But I cant even blame you
These words are just stuck in my head
As I'm laying in bed
Minds holding on by a thread
Hoping you forgive what I said
Damn
But I cant even blame you
I was trying to save you
I guess I just broke you
So
To a broken girl
In this broken world
From a lonely boy
In this lonely world
The only words I gotta say
Is it's okay
I forgive what you did
Cause I did the same

To be honest I cant wait to die
To be honest I cant even try
And to be honest I remember your face
But the details are fading away
Only the eyes will remain
I remember that day
I looked at your face
And had nothing to say
Like some type of daze
Now I'm just fading away
Alone in this castle
Till the end of my days

Sitting in silence
These walls are alive when
The thoughts are all mindless
I try to just hide it
But it's so hard to fight it
When your feeling so blinded
Cause your face is stuck in my eyelids
Like finding a diamond
There's a shine in the darkness
I just have to find it
Cause even though I put it behind
It's still in the back of my mind

To be honest I can't wait to die
To be honest I cant even try
To be honest I've been numb for so long
Now I cant even turn it off
I'm stuck in this wormhole
It's become new normal
With the emptiness hollow
The voices they follow
So it doesn't matter the way that you go
They'll always find the way
Back to they're home
I cant love anymore
I cant trust anymore
Leaving that all at the door
Stuck in this attic
With my mind going at it
I talk to myself
I feel like an addict
My life's moving static
Cause I guess I'm just average
Nothing to the eyes of the masses
Nothing in my mind but distractions
But it's all numb from the acid

To be honest I cant wait to die
To be honest I cant even try
To be honest I remember a time
I felt so alive
I could probably fly
It was that forth of July
When you looked at the sky
And as i looked at your face
You looked so amazed
And I guess I could say the same
But now it's all over
And now I'm just sober
And all of these nights just got colder
But as we get older
And the demons get closer
They sit on your shoulder
And March you around like a solider
And when you think it's all over
They'll bring you back into order
No way to get closure
I guess it's all over
F*ck being sober
I'm living my life as a loner