Depression in A Major Video (MV)

At least with depression I get to go to sleep
Early, early, early, early
At least on my own there is no company to keep
Busy, busy, busy, busy
At least when I close my eyes I will not have to see
Burning, burning, burning, burning
At least with out you here I don't have to get the sheets
Dirty, dirty, dirty, dirty
It's the last cigarette of the mourning
It's the last time that i'll go to sleep
In the bed sheets I haven't been washing
I wrote a song that I'll never complete
Is this being vulnerable?
Is this being vulnerable?