How was I so blind to think he was father?
Something in my mind I knew was different from others
Can I ever recover?
Somebody, somewhere, deserted me
Left to a world that perverted me
I'm something special, my mother would say
If she didn't blame me for her dreams gone astray
If I wasn't born wrong
I hear that music once again
Close, it holds me tight just like a friend
Scars inside my soul begin to mend
Maybe, at last, the pain will end
When I close my eyes I feel it start
Look from out high and fills my heart
Then I try to open and to share
The secrets I unlock up there
Take away the light, and give me the darkness
What was in my heart I knew, they knew
They would hate me
I just confuse and frustrate thee
Stupid, close-minded, the scum of the Earth
The children who made me so sick and perverse
I've made up my mind now to blow them away
I'll clean up all the filth, I will make them all pay
There is no life now for Shane