Lena Fine - Julian Lyrics

I still have the book you lent me
It was two years ago now
I haven't read it
But I tried a couple times
If you asked for it back
I would scramble
To read at least one line
So you would know I tried
And maybe it would make up for
Lost time
Julian
Why did you hold my hand
Were you just
Keeping it warm
I wanted hot
But you gave me lukewarm
Julian
Were we ever more
Than just friends
I could have sworn that you loved me
And maybe you did
Just not in the way you made me think
Junior year you picked me up
And you forgot to let me go
So now
I've been holding on to you for quite some time
We meet up about once a year
It's always nice to hear from you when I do
It feels as sweet as sixteen
Used to be
Julian
Why did you hold my hand
Were you just
Keeping it warm
I wanted hot
But you gave me lukewarm
Julian
Were we ever more
Than just friends
I could have sworn that you loved me
And maybe you did
Just not in the way you made me think
I think you were the closest feeling
I've had to something almost like love
I don't know whether to thank you
Or to hate you
And I don't know why the past week
I can't seem to get you off
My mind
Julian
Why did you hold my hand
Were you just
Keeping it warm
I wanted hot
But you gave me lukewarm
Julian
Were we ever more
Than just friends
I could have sworn that you loved me
And maybe you did
Just not in the way you made me think
Oh, Julian
Julian