Doubtful As Hell Video (MV)

Every single day I am doubting myself
Overthinking shit doesn't make me feel well
Always have been traumatized since I'm 12
Knock me out somebody I won't go to hell
I hesitate authority, I'm so f*cking scared
I wonder is it only me, but nobody cares
It's like a f*cking fairy tale when they say life is good
I was never understood
Never knew how I looked
Always chasing for integrity, realized life's not fair
Yo, I need much serenity, got patience with my hair
I weigh my peace on the scale
You caught me cheating with one foot
I'm not completely outta mud
Livin' complacent in the hood
Don't wanna be stuck in the past
I feel like I'm slow, I'm always last
Acid raining on me, on my gash
The fire on me burns super fast
Insecure in the crowd, aye, such a mess(aye)
Overcoming fear cause me cardiac arrest(yuh)
The devil wanna play, aye, he wanna posess(yuh)
But I'm not f*cking lost, bruh, I just wanna rest
Will anybody save me? Aye, sayless
I know that won't happen, straight pain in my chest
Behave like a savage, thats a win in chess
I'm not gon' be average
I'm gon be the best
Even when I'm downbad I don't take booze
I guess I'm still failin' cuz I take snus
I don't wanna take it, my brain is on a cruise
To this day I save it, that's the way to loose
Bad cravings on some days, feelin' dizzy on some days
Especially on Mondays, yeah uh
Never found a good way, always been astray
Broken look on my face
Acid pourin on me again I need an umbrella
I don't wanna go outside, this is not good weather
Insecurities beat me again, yeah forever
Everybody's jealous they call me soulseller
Notice how they cancel every talent, every talent, every talent
(motherf*cking talent)
I don't wanna waste mine, it's a habit
I don't wanna waste mine as a bandit
Notice how they cancel every talent, every talent, every talent
(motherf*cking talent)
I don't wanna waste mine, it's a habit
I don't wanna waste mine as a bandit, ye
Every single day I am doubting myself
Overthinking shit doesn't make me feel well
Always have been traumatized since I'm 12
Knock me out somebody I won't go to hell
I hesitate authority, I'm so f*cking scared
I wonder is it only me, but nobody cares
It's like a f*cking fairy tale when they say life is good
I was never understood
Never knew how I looked
Always chasing for integrity, realized life's not fair
Yo, I need much serenity, got patience with my hair
I weigh my peace on the scale
You caught me cheating with one foot
I'm not completely outta mud
Livin' complacent in the hood
I used to hide behind a shield
But then I realized I'm Shaquille O'Neal
Tall, heavy, very strong, I'm the Man of Steel
My baby's like Lois Lane, princess how u feel?
She's so f*cking cute, yeah, she's my reindeer
I miss her so f*cking much, I want her here
I can talk about her like Shakespear
I would prolly start like "Hello my dear"
I hesitate authority, I'm so f*cking scared
I wonder is it only me, but nobody cares
It's like a f*cking fairy tale when they say life is good
I was never understood
Never knew how I looked
Always chasing for integrity, realized life's not fair
Yo, I need much serenity, got patience with my hair
I weigh my peace on the scale
You caught me cheating with one foot
I'm not completely outta mud
Livin' complacent in the hood
I hesitate authority, I'm so f*cking scared
I wonder is it only me, but nobody cares
It's like a f*cking fairy tale when they say life is good
I was never understood
Never knew how I looked
Always chasing for integrity, realized life's not fair
Yo, I need much serenity, got patience with my hair
I weigh my peace on the scale
You caught me cheating with one foot
I'm not completely outta mud
Livin' complacent in the hood