lessur - Guardrail Lyrics

I've been running away
From my problems all day
Might go take a short drive
Guardrail, don't feel alive
I've been searching for ways
To stay happy these days
Might go take a short drive
Guardrail, don't feel alive

I've been running away
From my problems all day
Might go take a short drive
Guardrail, don't feel alive
I've been searching for ways
To stay happy these days
Might go take a short drive
Guardrail, don't feel alive

Isn't it crazy with a roof above my head
That I'm still waking up wishing I was dead
Cause there's no way for me to mend these thoughts
I always sit here while my entire life rots
Daydream of a better life
Got two kids and a wife
Got money from my passion
But really I'm just asking
Why I can never get a single thing done
Why I can never stand to see the f*cking sun
And why I can never stand to look at myself
Because every time I do I see somebody else
And I lied when I said that I finally feel alive
Cause the water's rising and I'm taking a dive
And internal happiness will never f*cking thrive
So I'll go off of an overpass while I'm on a drive

I don't have the patience or time
I'm a f*cking thorn in my side
Telling myself that I'll be okay
Knowing full well I'll never seize the day

I don't have the patience or time
I'm a f*cking thorn in my side
Telling myself that I'll be okay
Knowing full well I'll never seize the day

I've been running away
From my problems all day
Might go take a short drive
Guardrail, don't feel alive
I've been searching for ways
To stay happy these days
Might go take a short drive
Guardrail, don't feel alive

I've been running away
From my problems all day
Might go take a short drive
Guardrail, don't feel alive
I've been searching for ways
To stay happy these days
Might go take a short drive
Guardrail, don't feel alive

I'm sitting here thinking about my entire life purpose
And how I've been trying but it never seems worth it
Will there ever be a point or something to achieve
Or will I always wonder when this grief will leave
I always lay in my bed
With thoughts of being dead
Thinking about what I said
About the demons in my head
And what would happen if I let them win
Because recently things have really been
The worst they've been in a couple years
And relapsing has always been one of my fears
Cause last year I wrote about beating the blade
And now I'm just thinking about the mistake I made
When I felt like there wasn't anybody around
Because I was too f*cking scared to make a sound

I don't have the patience or time
I'm a f*cking thorn in my side
Telling myself that I'll be okay
Knowing full well I'll never seize the day

I don't have the patience or time
I'm a f*cking thorn in my side
Telling myself that I'll be okay
Knowing full well I'll never seize the day

I've been running away
From my problems all day
Might go take a short drive
Guardrail, don't feel alive
I've been searching for ways
To stay happy these days
Might go take a short drive
Guardrail, don't feel alive