I'm thinkin' goriest shit
Gimme a pill or something
To diminish it
So that I can feel nothing
And I'm crushed inside
My idea of success
I'm in a living hell
Because I feel nothing
Make my day yeah make my day
Anything to make this pain go away
Been wrapped up inside things I won't say
I'm out in the rain and I'm not okay
I can feel your presence shaking my core
Inside my head there's a great war
Sleeping pills I need to take more
Or I'm back to the way I was before
Ghosts dancing in my room
I can see them twisting through the gloom
Eternally haunted by my thoughts
Struggling to connect the dots
Everyone is out to get you
No one cares what you've been through
They're ignoring you it's nothing new
You're fake and everyone can see through
It's a dangerous type of night
Cuz everyone I love is out of sight
Sitting in my room all alone
Brightest light in there is my phone
I begin to feel trapped when I'm overthinking
Nowhere to run and take my mind off of things
I know that others have got it worse
But I wanna try put my feelings into verse
Goriest shit
Gimme a pill or something
To diminish it
So that I can feel nothing
And I'm crushed inside
My idea of life
I'm in a living hell
Because I feel nothing
Then my texts stop sending
I don't wanna be depending on myself
It's all ending
This shit ain't mending
It all seems a blur
Wouldn't even occur
These old events will haunt me tonight
Got my love and my friends
Here for me all the time
But I don't think it's gonna fill this void
Butterflies in my stomach
It aches
I don't wanna do this
Can't sleep
Withering away
I come home from these nights out
With even more to cry about
So I engross myself into films and games
To distract from how I've made myself feel
I'm inside a timetable of what I do each day
And then
Over exhaustion creeps up on me
So I try sleep to numb the pain
It's a dangerous type of night
Cuz everyone I love is out of sight
Sitting in my room all alone
Brightest light in there is my phone
I begin to feel trapped when I'm overthinking
Nowhere to run and take my mind off of things
I know that others have got it worse
But I wanna try put my feelings into verse