Morning Video (MV)

Imagine sitting in a garden, in which all your thoughts surround you
Wouldn't want to look around, I'd be worried that they'd scare me
Worried that I'd see all the bad things I've done, all the mean things I've said
Sitting in my head

When you take a look around
And see the one you truly are
Would you smile or would you cry
At the person you've become

Don't want to let anybody down with promises of a future
Something bigger, something better
All these thoughts fill my head
While I'm laying down in bed

Everyday I think about the things I could've done differently
The conversations, motivations, all the different iterations
I regret the things I've done and everything I haven't
Yet no matter what I do, what I say, I can't stop hearing voices

Wish I could tell the ones I hurt how sorry that I am
I wish I could erase the pain, I wish that it would go away

I don't know where I am
But I know where I wanna go
Still figuring out who I am
I'm too stuck in the flow
Tired of waiting for things to change
Tired of waiting for better days

And I don't want to hide these things anymore

I never meant to lose your heart
I never meant to lose that part
I never meant to hurt you
Even on the darkest days

Never want to fall asleep
I'd be worried that I'd never wake
I don't want your hand to hold
I'm worried that It'd feel fake