Lightmason - Crash Lyrics

Crash...
From a drug that had given me life
Washed the sludge from my heart and my eyes
Like a bath that was made if pure light
Made my pain and depression subside
Turned my pride into
Ash...
Is all sustinence now that it's gone
Clearly woven in my favorite song
Now they mock me, pretending to know
If they did, they'd just long to forget it for ignorant
Bliss...
When I first felt it at seventeen
Felt a rush that was so unforeseen
As reality fell around me
Ecstacy took it's place as the beauty caressing my
Skin...
Like an angel's stretched over her bones
Made me feel like her body was home
I thought magic and angels and God were all dead
But I've seen her there lying in bed
It's the curl of her lips
At the corners I've kissed
It's the tendons and veins
Under ivory wrists
It's the sun in her eyes
With a pupil eclipse
It's those legs
Long and white
It's her hips
No substance I've kicked can compare to this crash
I've beat benzos and meth
Bet you never knew that
Amphetamine highs always left me so low
Though they never opposed when i tried to relapse
So just go, turn your back
Leave without a goodbye
I noticed the knife
I left buried inside
I can't help you heal
If you don't let me try
But I don't blame the mind
Finding fault in that line
Left you shocked and ashamed
From uncovering lies
Now we can't resonate
Since you saw my disguise
Behind lies a soul
Far too flawed for your eyes
Know your love left it's mark
But this crash won't subside