Lil Mias - Brotherly Pain Lyrics

I been os since i was 14 my big br died had to find my way
Big cuz pass me the drac see red in my eyes now im letting dem feel my pain
Nowadays shii been the same go out catch hats but lately i want an escape
Getting into it with goofies i hope that they do sum my life shoula been taken
Going at war with myself
I never asked for no help
Born innis shii now i know that its no way around it i just been chasing for wealth
Im Born to be great
But i had a lot my plate i couldnt afford to get rest
Everyone going against me i felt empty everyday wanting to check
Talking to dave otp he knowing whats wrong now im tryna spill sum
He said to just focus on music and dont get into it i know that u tryna go kill one
Been Smoking da pain away lean in my system nobody ion feel none
Brudda been dead for like 2 years and im still mad but now i feel numb
Fighting the devil in side of me
I know that we the lord isnt proud of me
Steady been causing the killing been spinning from north to the west me and lil bro wit hollow tips
Money been changing me im switching my circle cuz i know tha these niggas after me
Kill any nigga push up they know i go dumb im showing these niggas the strategy
Dont wanna die young like roddy
Look to my right or my left now i dont even check cuz ion see no one beside me
Going to war with the world just me and my glock cuz ion think no one behind me
I know that im dying alone but before they take me they know im vnot letting them stop me these niggas just Gon have to pop me
How can u smile in my face
I already know u a snake
Tryna take alla food off my plate
Tryna show u da work all u do is hate
Dont wanna acknowledge that im gon be great
Ima do anything if i feel ian safe
If a nigga push up den im tapping his face
I gotta get rich do ts for da A
Fighting depression bipolar disorder anxiety ate me alive
Swimming way down to the deep end cant even see shii ian gon open my eyes
Dont give a f*ck bout myself still care bout the image iah kill any nigga bout pride
Growing up without a mom my tears all gone swear ion feel nun inside
The circle get smaller my money enlarging ian gon trip bout a thing
Opps steady speaking onnis this and that they aint did shii to us niggas must gotta be dreaming
Demons inside of my room they look at me and smile they know that im going out swinging
I wanted the lord to cleanse me i feel empty
Somebody hit me with a beam
Look me in my eyes and tell me u see all the struggle ive been through
Niggas always wanna judge me they dont know shii back back nigga ill split
Tearing up crying inside im dying inside i swear to u that i been wishful
Nobody dont know bout the pain look up at sky see black all yall see crystal
Nobody know bout the wreck i did shed blood for the A no cap
Ian gon bap buddy had gave me dem bitches spin back why he running like track
Up late thinking bout big bro sitting in my room demons screaming out loud in my head
Sitting balled up inna corner crying in silence nobody know im dead
I been os since i was 14 my big br died had to find my way
Big cuz pass me the drac see red in my eyes now im letting dem feel my pain
Nowadays shii been the same go out catch hats but lately i want an escape
Getting into it with goofies i hope that they do sum my life shoula been taken
Going at war with myself
I never asked for no help
Born innis shii now i know that its no way around it i just been chasing for wealth
Im Born to be great
But i had a lot my plate i couldnt afford to get rest
I'm clutching a vec but i know that shit aint reliable one day im gon check