Lil Softie - I Don't Want To Die Lyrics

I got these demons in my head
Replaying everything I said
Was it worth it, the tears I shed
To find myself alone again
Every time I put the blade to my wrist I can't do it
I can't pull the trigger if it meant I wouldn't feel it
Called so many names
Belittled in such ways
I can't explain how fragile I feel
With my heart again
For the taking, but no one is taking
Die, runs in my head but I know I can't make it
I got people to stay for
Dreams I can't make or
Nightmares to wake sore
My heart, let it break more
Days go by where I waste my time
What can I do in this life
I can't do it anymore, I-I'm so sorry
Please don't hate me after this
I-I tried, I swear I tried so hard
I just I can't, I can't do it anymore
Just know that I love you so so much
So many notes that I threw away
Only you could read all the pain
Wrote a will to be cremated
I just wanna be sedated
Thought of ways to get outta here
Only tried three times in a year
No one was there at my worst
Seeing the difference, it hurts
Demons crawl in my brain
My actions I make in vain
I only talk to the rain
Because it's hard to explain
Used to being alone
I stay awake on my phone
I can't sleep to the tone
I feel so unknown
Feelings I keep in private
Slowly losing this riot
Emotions look like a giant
Overwhelmed, I go silent
It's hard to say goodbye
Gone, I'm cold and dry
I don't want to die
I'm sorry I don't feel alive