Lil Static - Losing My Mind Lyrics

(Ugh f*ck... Ugh)
I feel all the pain from my past, that shit bottling up again
I'm sane when I laugh, then it's right back to suffering
These bitches change for some cash, yea it got me wonderin
I blame my heart for being black, like will I be loved again cuz...
They don't understand all the tragedies
I search for god, cuz I know the devil is after me
When I was down bad, you said it was a wrap for me
Feel like now I'm at the half, I'm up more than a packers lead... yea
I got a dark soul
I'm tryna find my way, but life been like a dark hole
No charcoal, I came from the bottom
I swear to god I'll never give up, nah I'm goin full throttle
Look, yea I get sum love, but it's way more people hatin
I know I got sum problems, so I run cuz I can't face em'
I lost myself in an abyss, so now I'm waitin
To see if I can find myself again, before I make it yea, yea
Or am I just waiting my time, losing my mind
Am I just waisting my time, losing my mind
And I could spit some shit that y'all couldn't comprehend
I went from being broke, to now counting my dividends
Focus on your goals, don't worry about ya friends
Jus cuz he say he close, don't really mean he your mans
These are all things that I wish I would've known
Before I got hurt, cuz now my hearts way too exposed
Whats a bigger issue, man drinking till I'm gone
Or pushing people out because I'm scared to end up alone?
So focused on my grind, I'm not worried about my happiness
I do this everytime, needa ask myself what's happening, I'm lagging man
But at the same time can u define what a "real rapper" is?
You see but me I'm an artist, that's why I'm working my hardest
But I know this shit gon take time, like I'm facing some charges
Battles with the man in the mirror, like who gon make it farthest?
I feel like I'm the best, regardless
And all these other rappers, harmless
Or am I just waiting my time, losing my mind
Am I just waisting my time, losing my mind
I feel all the pain from my past, that shit bottling up again
I'm sane when I laugh, then it's right back to suffering
These bitches change for some cash, yea it got me wonderin
I blame my heart for being black, like will I be loved again cuz...
They don't understand all the tragedies
I search for god, cuz I know the devil is after me
When I was down bad, u said it was a wrap for me
Feel like now I'm at the half, I'm up more than a packers lead...