Lil Synt - Fade Away Lyrics

I'm always striving to find a way, a way, a way
To keep the demons to stay away, away from me
I been getting high, so high, to take my pain away
I just wanna ball like mike before I fade away

I done been in the rain
I never see sunny days
It's like I'm stuck in a cage
It's like I live in a maze
I gotta watch how I move
I gotta watch where I lay
I gotta watch what I say
Gotta watch who you call ya friend
Cuz it be ya circle who change
I was in the dark but now I'm glowing yea
Felt like PNB going through the motions yea
I was just nobody now they starting to notice me
I keep telling myself to pray but I keep on rolling yea
I done seen too many killas die
I done seen too many homicides
You don't know how I really feel inside
But a nigga really traumatized
Nowadays ain't safe to go outside
Nowadays we keep our kids inside
Nowadays we can't enjoy our lives
That's why I hustle every day I'm always on my grind
P.O.P that's for the fam yea ima hold it down
I'm on the road to the money are you coming for the ride
You coming for the ride

I'm always striving to find a way, a way, a way
To keep the demons to stay away, away from me
I been getting high, so high, to take my pain away
I just wanna ball like mike before I fade away

I might keep a smile on my face but no I'm not okay
Because I'm here in Philly I f*ck around and die today
I'm tryna be up in the stars I'm tryna ride the wraith
They rather see me dead they wan make me a holiday
I swear i need a vacation
Gotta make it out the hood yea I know that ima make it
Treating life like its a test yea you know that ima ace it
I got tunnel vision so you can never be a frustration
How we gone make it to the top if you always tryn bring me down
These niggas move like squares but always wan be around
All my friends turned into foes I can't be around these clowns
They keep throwing all this shade I think they wanna steal my shine
I told myself to keep my cool you gone be cool just give it time
I'm already in the lead ain't no way I'm stopping now
They say that time is money so I'm never clocking out
I'm always chasing for my daughter while you chasing for the clout
I be up late nights early mornings
Started wit a little now I'm getting bigger portions
I was out there hustling in the rain when it was storming
Starving for a meal I used to shop right out of Formans
Working while you snoring

I'm always striving to find a way, a way, a way
To keep the demons to stay away, away from me
I been getting high, so high, to take my pain away
I just wanna ball like mike before I fade away