Lily Pierce - Stuck Here, Writing Sad Songs Lyrics

I'm lucky I've got a lot of pride
Stops me from reaching out
During the hard times
I try to stay strong
Just thought you'd always be mine
Now, I gotta live like this

I torture my head
Picture you in bed
With your new girlfriend
Easiest way to make me scared
God, I'll always self-compare
You're blocked, you're gone
You're all moved on
And I'm still stuck here, writing sad songs

I know what you'll call me
Hypocrite.
Got around that summer, and I know it
The difference is
I still think of you
And I won't lie, half the time
I still want you back too
Cause you were all I knew

I torture my head
Picture you in bed
With your new girlfriend
Easiest way to make me scared
God, I'll always self-compare
You're blocked, you're gone
You're all moved on
And I'm still stuck here, writing sad songs

I don't even know your relationship status
Jesus christ, my mind makes it so graphic
Please contrast it
Please contrast it
But also stay the hell away from me
Ughhh, I feel crazy

I torture my head
Picture you in bed
With your new girlfriend
(ew)
Easiest way to make me scared
God, I'll always self-compare
You're blocked, you're gone
You're all moved on
And I'm still stuck here, writing sad songs

Oh, I would forgive you
(I don't want to)
I would forgive you
(You should say sorry)
I would forgive you
If you still wanted me back too
I would forgive you
(I want to)
Love, I hate that it's true
I hate myself for feeling the way I do

You're blocked, you're gone
You've told your mom
Now I feel like I always loved you more

Do you hate love?
Or just my love?
Oh love, why'd you have to give me a reason to write sad songs?