Linebacker Dirge - A Descent Lyrics

If I were to ask you
What you are
And what you believe in
Could you tell me?
Without that look in your eye
And say truly
That you know?

For the older I get
The more I dissect
To deflect and derive
The source of my failings
To the point that I am
Mere experiment
(Read embarrassment)

But in analysis lies growth
And in analysis lies joy, and pain, and folly
Contemplative, contradicting, explanations (Deliberations)
That lead only to further confusion, loss of sense of self and alienation

'Cause by 25 I'd cut it up into so many pieces
That the solvent in my petri dish had eaten it's way through
Through the sample
And those filters I'd relied on
To tell the difference between black and white
Art and shite
Have melted together in the sunlight
And this passive objectivity
Has me question
Every word I say
God knows what I'm meant to sound like
And this morbid objectivity
Has me question
Everything I do
God knows what I'm meant to be like...

And though it comes off as tragedy
I write only black comedy
All these lack is a laugh track
So let's sing

Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha-hah ha
Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha-hah ha
Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha-hah ha
Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha ha ha f*cking ha

Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha-hah ha
(This 101 melody)
Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha-hah ha
(Descending so predictably)
Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha-hah ha
(This depicts a descent)
(A crisping sear on yellow leaf)
(This depicts a descent)
Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha ha ha f*cking hah
(This depicts a descent)
(Of withering despondency)
So let's sing

Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha-hah ha
Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha-hah ha
Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha-hah ha
Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha ha ha f*cking hah

A Descent

Because every time you meet someone new
You repeat yourself
Reiterate that mission statement
But it's an edit
Fractal and diffuse
Designed by committee

A caricature

Designed for the worst people
You are likely to have to
Explain yourself to

And this is the cycle
For the rest of our days
We will lie. We will lie

And this is the cycle
For the rest of my days
Eternally subsidised me