Living Suitcase - Duality Lyrics

I think I'm starting to lose my mind
Your cocaine daydreams left me blind
And all those years I left behind
Wasted breath and wasted time

And I, I don't know why
I'm always too proud to live and too scared to die
So, imagine my surprise

I saw her standing next to me
Her twilight eyes, her midnight sea
Though she's only just a dream
She took my hands, and she said

Let me get dressed up again and I'll go out soon
Drink until I can collapse and fall back into you
And it's true, oh it's true
Grey's my favourite colour after all
Is said and done
You're the only lover I've ever loved

I don't know where I'm supposed to go
I haven't been myself for weeks
And I can't be, what I wanna be
For fear of pissing off, the people that I don't give a f*ck about

And I, I think this it's a crime
And I, think you're so divine
And I, I don't wanna die

My darling Emily
You're living in sin
You know you can't win
So why the f*ck do I try?

Should it be hopeless?
Or should I be dead?
I'm trapped in my head
And I gotta break free

When all, of my friends, aren't enough like me
When all, of my friends, aren't enough like me

And I, I think it's a sign
I'm always too scared to live and too proud to die
So, imagine my surprise

I watched her walk away from me
Her twilight eyes don't leave me be
God, please tell me I'm paralyzed
I'm paralyzed

Let me get packed up again and I'll grow up soon
You know you're my only friend, I f*cking loved this room
And it's true, oh it's true
Grey's my favourite colour after all
Is said and done
You're the only lover I ever loved